My name is Katie. 6 years ago my husband and myself were faced with the reality of saying goodbye to our oldest daughter forever. There was no one who could tell me the next step. There was no one who could tell me how I was supposed to breathe again. This blog is as much an effort to help myself as it is to (hopefully) help others. This has been a long and daunting road and there are days where I’m still not sure how I have made it this far. That doesn’t mean life is without happy moments or goodness. We have worked hard to balance life for our other child and for ourselves and the good news is we have made many happy memories in that time. But the grief is always there. I have come to think of it as my constant companion. A friend who will never let me down. Grief has a way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it and knocking you sideways, but that is only in the big moments when it wants to act a fool. Other times, its this constant feeling of not being able to take a deep breath in. That feeling never goes away. I am learning to deal with my feelings. I am learning to cope. But my biggest goal is to find peace. Peace is one thing I can’t seem to achieve. I don’t know if peace will make things better. I don’t think so because I can’t imagine ever not missing her so much it hurts. As time goes on, I will share more specific details about our journey, but this post was to get my feet wet and see what came out of my heart when I started to type. I have said this before and I will probably say it a million more times in my lifetime- I wouldn’t wish this pain on my worst enemy. Maybe by making this blog, more of us who have dealt with this can come together. Maybe that is what it takes to survive- walking this path together. Tell me what you think. Also please bear with me as I figure out this blog thing. This blog is live but expect aesthetic changes as I figure things out.